Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Wishcasting Wednesday (and more!)

Hello friends!
Only 3 days "late", this is my first post for the New Year!
(So much for my hopeful intention to post everyday!)

But I have been quite happily busy and creative over the past 3 days,
mainly because I am committing to immersing myself in new creative explorations this year.

Here is what 'veI started (so far!) in January:

Strathmore Papers Free Online Art Workshops
This month: "Doodles Unleashed" with Traci Bautista.

one of my first doodles unleashed creations

365 Project
(it will actually be 366 photos this leap year!)

my 365 Project photo for today
Effy Wild's Book of Days
I have wanted to start art journaling for forever...this is gonna be sooooo fun!

front cover of my altered book

Creative Every Day
(although I HAVE been creative every day of 2012 so far, I am still working on joining in on the posts to share my daily creations with the other participants...only so much time in a day to create AND do all the technical stuff involved!)

Finishing up the final weeks of the awesome 6 week long
Creative Goddess e-course

Continuing to participate in lots of fun & challenging art swaps
(I currently have 11 swaps on my "dashboard" and 11 on my "watchlist"!)

With the guidance of the amazing Jamie Ridler,
I'm creating monthly Full Moon Dreamboards

the cover for my Full Moon Dreamboards poster "book"

And the actual topic of my post for today, inspired by Jamie Ridlers Studio blog entry Wishcasting Wednesday, which I plan to do every Wednesday on my blog too.

This Wednesday's Wishcasting prompt:
"What or whom do you wish to make peace with?"

Well, I really hope that I am correct in my feeling that there is really no person with which I need or wish to make peace with...other than myself.

*I wish to make peace with all of the self-imposed guilt I carry (and which brings tears to my eyes whenever I think about it, as I do pretty much every day, and like is happening right this minute as I type this...) about stupid, selfish, irrational, life changing, negatively-affecting-innocent-loved-ones decisions, choices and actions I made years ago...(well, shit...I just realized, perhaps I DO need to make peace with those whom I hurt with these decisions, although they have never given me an indication that they hold it against me...but I sure hold it against myself).

*I wish to make peace with my aspirations to be perfect and my tendencies to compare myself to others (which manifests as inertia due to fear of even bothering to try to do much of anything new and different which intrigues or calls to me because I will suck at it and fail anyway...which in my deepest heart of hearts I know is just not always true all the time!).

*I wish to make peace with my insecurities (ie: jealousies, suspicions, abandonment issues, emotional "going down that road"-ness which only keeps me from realizing/accepting the truth that I am finally in a happy healthy relationship with an amazing man who accepts and even adores me, flaws & all, and is not going anywhere...unless I manage to drive him away with my incessant need to open up my baggage and fling all of my previously damaged belongings at him...!)

*I wish to make peace with my need to please AND control...(how do these two even exsist side-by-side anyway? I can be so weird.)  

Thank you for reading my blog.
I wish you a 2012 filled with all of your deepest, dearest wishes come true.

That would make me a very:
Happy Me-Laurie Z


  1. Need to please and control--oh, I get that! For me it was about making sure everything stayed perfect and in that way I would also please. Weird :) As you wish for yourself, so I also wish for you.

  2. I envision you stepping into the middle ground on your beautiful wishes, finding you're peace, you're center, you're awesomeness. : )

    As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you as well.

  3. I love your first of 366 photos! As you wish for yourself, so I also wish for you!

  4. Wow, I love all that you're creating! And the full moon dreamboards are awesome!

  5. Wow...I love all that you are creating!
    What a gorgeous photo--I joined the 365 project today just to "get my feet wet", and make sure I refine my eye:)
    Beauty filled you wish for your self, so I too wish for you as well :)

  6. As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you, Laurie - may you find the peace you seek!

  7. Full Moon Dreamboard.....ahhhhh. Love it. Wow, you are & are going to be one busy Mama! You go Grrrrrl!

  8. Wonderful projects you have committed to. They will help you to heal and come to peace.
    As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.